The past four days seem to be a copy & paste of each other. Every day starts out good, and ends on a bad note.
Perhaps I'm becoming too reliant on you...
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
A question that needs an answer!
Hey you there... Yes you... Remember on New Year's Eve you said you hope that one day you can look at me and know that I'm worth it to have as a gf? Now how's that coming along?
Monday, April 4, 2011
Reflection
Ha! Maybe should stop by to do a weekly or monthly reflection or something..
Where should I begin....
Work: Where am I going? How do I move on from here? The past cases, are they going to be processed all fine? I guess all these are my greatest concerns right now. I think I need to start thinking. Be independent. Stop absorbing all the things pple say and treating it as though it's the way of life. My life has to be tailored and suited to what's important and suitable for me. I wish we could all just be a little bit more trusting. I know Pris means well by warning me of all the possible consequences, but it has made me really wary of people. I guess that intern's words really woke me up. Is work all about money? Can colleagues never be friends? Why am I not even bothering to interact with them? I don't want to 20 years down the road become the person she is...
Relationship: In the paat I've been happily thinking about what the future holds for us. Things have seemed so optimistic back then. Now, things have settled and I'm becoming more realistic. Besides the cost of owning a flat and vehicle, what's the possibility of us being able to stay under one roof. All the excuses I've got to make up. All the lies I've got to live with... All that hiding... It's just making me so jealous that my sis can come home with him, while I've got to think twice and thrice each time I mention your name. It's so terribly hard to find a person you can and want to be with. It's like the most beautiful thing, yet the most cruel joke.
Family: Give and take is the key. All that quaralling... It's been around as far back as I can remember. When will it all stop? Been trying to spend more time around with them now. Maybe just sitting down and watching tv with them or something. Dad and mum is getting old. I'm honestly v worried about our finances for the future if they should fall sick. I mean like two young pple supporting two old pple?!
Me, myself and I: Feeling stagnant right now. Don't feel much growth within me. Maybe been too occupied lately that I don't have time for myself? Sometimes I feel that way. But when it comes to spending alone time I kind of dread it and will drag you out instead. Haha.. Kinda weird.. It's like
Brain: "It's alone time right now! Go out there and spend time with yourself!"
Heart: "Errrr... She makes you happy. Right?"
Brain: "Uh huh......."
Heart: "Better to talk to someone about what you're thinking then bottling it up. Right?"
Brain: "Uh huh............"
Heart: "So do what you're suppose to!"
Hands: *text MQ*
Ok.. So this blog is turning emo cos I only recall you in times of emo-ness. Haha! My life's really not all doom and gloom cos I'm sunshine!! :D But what if all I have to give is not enough...
Where should I begin....
Work: Where am I going? How do I move on from here? The past cases, are they going to be processed all fine? I guess all these are my greatest concerns right now. I think I need to start thinking. Be independent. Stop absorbing all the things pple say and treating it as though it's the way of life. My life has to be tailored and suited to what's important and suitable for me. I wish we could all just be a little bit more trusting. I know Pris means well by warning me of all the possible consequences, but it has made me really wary of people. I guess that intern's words really woke me up. Is work all about money? Can colleagues never be friends? Why am I not even bothering to interact with them? I don't want to 20 years down the road become the person she is...
Relationship: In the paat I've been happily thinking about what the future holds for us. Things have seemed so optimistic back then. Now, things have settled and I'm becoming more realistic. Besides the cost of owning a flat and vehicle, what's the possibility of us being able to stay under one roof. All the excuses I've got to make up. All the lies I've got to live with... All that hiding... It's just making me so jealous that my sis can come home with him, while I've got to think twice and thrice each time I mention your name. It's so terribly hard to find a person you can and want to be with. It's like the most beautiful thing, yet the most cruel joke.
Family: Give and take is the key. All that quaralling... It's been around as far back as I can remember. When will it all stop? Been trying to spend more time around with them now. Maybe just sitting down and watching tv with them or something. Dad and mum is getting old. I'm honestly v worried about our finances for the future if they should fall sick. I mean like two young pple supporting two old pple?!
Me, myself and I: Feeling stagnant right now. Don't feel much growth within me. Maybe been too occupied lately that I don't have time for myself? Sometimes I feel that way. But when it comes to spending alone time I kind of dread it and will drag you out instead. Haha.. Kinda weird.. It's like
Brain: "It's alone time right now! Go out there and spend time with yourself!"
Heart: "Errrr... She makes you happy. Right?"
Brain: "Uh huh......."
Heart: "Better to talk to someone about what you're thinking then bottling it up. Right?"
Brain: "Uh huh............"
Heart: "So do what you're suppose to!"
Hands: *text MQ*
Ok.. So this blog is turning emo cos I only recall you in times of emo-ness. Haha! My life's really not all doom and gloom cos I'm sunshine!! :D But what if all I have to give is not enough...
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