Prayers

I don't think I would be considered a Christian, but this few days I've been praying so much I might just be mistaken as one. I definitely feel torn apart internally. And I don't know where to let it all go. There feels like a wall building up and isolating me once again. I hate all that internal feelings that I don't share with you when I feel it. But then again who wants to listen to the boring thoughts discussed countless of times. I've said we haven't spoken for so long. I think it's because I feel I'm keeping alot of thoughts to myself. Lots of stuff are weighing on my mind and I can't get it off. I'm extremely miserable!!! :( I don't know if there's a God out there. If yes, thanks for listening to all my grumbles.