So how far have I gone?

All these months and all the 'training', how far have I gone? Idk. Honestly, I don't feel I've progressed much. I don't feel the sense of capability to do well in the job. Probably in a couple of weeks I would be able to get my license. But the main question is 'then what?' Where do I go next?

All these while I've been picking up things here and there. At the end of the day I feel like I'm going nowhere. I need to work in sequence. An orderly manner that's productive. I feel like as if my emotions are on a roller coaster.

Why doesn't money just drop from the sky? I really hate living days like that.... I guess to a certain extent money can really buy me happiness. Take away my tears and misery please...

"Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can" - Martin Luther King

When you're young, you're idealistic. As you grow older, you become more realistic.

What is it that sets aside great people from the mediocre masses? What propels them to have beliefs so strong they're willing to sacrifice their lives? What keeps them going when the future is bleak? What keeps them pushing even when they no longer have control over their movements? What role does the family have to play in their greatness? Why don't they ever reach a point of saying 'enough failure is enough'? Why have they never succumbed into leading a mediocre (read: peaceful & stable) life? Where do they get such strength from?

Kids are urged to 'be realistic'. But idealism is the forefront of change. And everything's changing.

Must keep my sanity in check. The thought of seeing you in 20hours just made me cry. How am I ever going to survive another one week?!?!?! But on a sidenote, it's amazing me just how much a person can ever mean to me. Just you is enough for me. I can't multitask.

I'm starting to feel miserable again. The financial pressures are taking a toll on me, so much so that I lost my temper with mum just now. I don't know if I can survive the critical 6months/2yrs in this industry when I'm feeling like this now.

LK got a $3.5k job. Add in bonuses, CPF, staff benefits.... All the opportunity costs... Is it worth it?

Blah

Baby's sick and injured now. So far away from me... I miss you..

Aung San Suu Kyi 'released'

Could be happy news. But obviously everyone's cautious about it. Hence the "

An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind

Negative thoughts are like looking for a black cat in a dark room when the cat isn't even there