24 dec 2012 Christmas eve

Past two yrs went to friend's house with you. This yr I'm on my own. Had a christmas party in office. It was fun. Nights r often crazy. They make one think alot. Today guess I will spent time gazing at the stars. No longer are you by my side. Some changes we may never get used to. We just learn to live with it. I still miss you. Not the dying kind I felt a few months back. Good that it's now that my counsellor has no time. I wonder if you miss me still. Wonder how u r adapting to changes without me with u. Nostalgia. Meaning of Christmas is slowly changing for me. May a new beginning be ahead of me. Goodnight love.